Did some reflection.. wondered what I've acomplished so far.. Cant think of any.. It seems that everyone in my clique, my buddies had found the path in life for them.. JieLin been promoted recently.. stable job.. goin to get hitched soon too, Am truely happy for her. A surpising twist in faith, Lei will soon be flying, a totally different arena to being a renderer, she's not going regret this, do support her for her choice too. Hammy's flying too!!! WOW!.. Hao also know what he wants too (I concluded after reading his blog).. Shui is performing in NDP!! How cool is that! Surely thats going to reflect very well when he goes for interview. Candice always knows what she wants, similarly to Jie, soon be hitched too. Mei got in MOE, finally!!! Its what she always wanted, so you go girl!! Davina, hopefully she's really gotten over that bastard (this call for a celebration), she too is teaching, finally a stable job and am glad for her...
Feeling lost now.. what have I achieved so far.. Even thought I've work quite a while, still not much was learned.. been kind of pampered at work too.. Yes.. am studying in NUS now.. but whats the big deal about it.. not exactly scoring well (in fact pretty bad).. not putting in much effort to fit in too.. more of a loner.. keep sticking to a few I know.. cant stand myself some times... always claiming to be very independant, givin this very strong front, when in fact I'm just weak, constantly feeling very insercure, needing assurance everytime.. Going to be a few more years before graduation (if I ever do make it to graduation).. not sure if this is the right path for me.. not sure if I can handle that much responsibility as an Architect.. or is this the life I wan? Being in this field for 5 years le, getting kinda sick already, but yet to hate it.. I cant hate it.. if I do, I'll be left with nothing.. since this is the only thing I've dreamt of doing since little.. now I'll need to endure a bit more and I'm there.. I should be happy but why do I feel this hollow-ness inside.. something is still missing.. is it my job?.. think its really time to work in a new environment the next holiday.. time to leave my comfort zone and explore.. My old firm is no longer able to provide me with the taste of acomplishment that I once experienced.I was a newbie before, not now, my opinion on job satisfaction changes.. Whats the point of earning more than anyone else... I need to feel valued. I'm just a typical Leo... feeling depressed and kinda hot tempered now.. argh.. am I making any sense at all.. why do I feel so much fustration all of a sudden.. stop here.. time to get my butt out of the house.. need to get files..
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