August Child

Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control.
Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination.
Loves to be loved. Hates studying.
in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom.
Rebellious when withheld or restricted.
Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect.
Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.
Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

Narcissistic me.

Am Still looking around for a watch.. Baby-G dont seem to fit me.. got a skinny wrist.. damn.. would be great if the rest of me is that skinny too..
Time to get back to work.. Argh.. I wan my holiday..

and to my Dearest, still love you the MOST! hee

Tonight poly gathering (so hope its gonna be my BD celebration too..) is a failure.. All my effort flushed into the toilet bowl.. No dinner appointment.. no one to watch fireworks together.. Now.. I pray the clubbing wont be canceled due to poor responce too.. so far only me and 2 more pals.. and I wonder should I continue with it.. haiz.. what a bother.. Sat is similarly lonely.. maybe I get some surprise on Sun? (cross my fingers..).. Mon going for school site visit.. Damn.. and I was thinking of wearing something nice for my dinner with Jie and Chyi... No idea why I'm so affected by all this.. its just another day right.. All I want is their time ma.. is that too much to ask?..
Hai.. any way this is a little recap of my week..(note this might be the last few blogs I'll be posting, haaa. sch work can be demanding you know)


Thursday 10th Aug: Afternoon was off to school for a briefing.. and then to SimLim with LayHar to get her Hardisk.. I got myself a ear piece, ink cartriage and bulk cds.. man.. getting poorer.. Any way the fun part of the day is coming.. Haaa. We headed to K box Cineleisure (Its was round 7.30pm when we reached.) It was ladies night, therefore no cover charged needed, only required to order a drink each and a compulsory tibits(refillable, so its ok) We sang and sang.. AND sang like this is the last K-ing opportunity we have. HaaaaHaa. We left @ 2am.. very tired by then but it was So fun!! Thanks for the time spent together gal!! :)
We shared a cab home. The ride home was as usual.. the WOW part is.. the cad driver was so totally reponsible. He made sure we gals reached the lifts safely before he drove off. He even got off his car just to ensure my safety from his car to the lift (Because he was unable to see the lift from inside of his car!!) How cool was that!!! There's still good taxi drivers in singapore that think not only of earning money after all. 3 cheers for our Model taxi driver!!

Wednesday 9th Aug: Dear had his wisdom tooth pulled just earlier on in the morning. I went over to his house to accompany him. He got his much needed rest while I watched cartoon networks. We left home round 6pm to Kallang for NDP air show and fireworks. We drove over to the HDBs near the stadium and station ourselves along the kallang river. The crowd was massive!! It was equally chaotic on the road, we were lucky to took a detour and cut the traffic, and even more lucky when we got ourselves a proper parking lot, better still on the 1st level of the multi carpark.(cars are parked partically everywhere..) We listened to the radio as we waited to stay in tuned with the happenings in the stadium. Although both of us had seen the preview, still its refreshing to watch it from a different perspective. We were exactly behind the stadium and it was full glory of the fireworks show infront of us with no obstractions. Fantastic. Happy National Day cum 4th Anniversary to us!!

Tuesday 8th Aug: was down to Fullerton to watch the firework fest by Singapore theme with my sis and ma. It was AWSOME!!!

Monday, August 07, 2006,8/07/2006

.: JB trip :.

Saturday 5th Aug:

accompanied Dear to JB for his dental appointment. I thought i was early. Set off from home @ 9am, reached round 10am.. his late.. I waited and see the Q growing.. any way it was relatively smooth over at Singapore.. The Q at Malaysia was the killer.. 2 Ah ma even attempted to cut our Q, almost shoot my mouth at them, but I 'ren', don wan to see myself irrespestful to elderly (they look fierce too, so just kind of say aloud to Dear that I think they are trying to cut in for all to hear, and some how the intended ppl will hear it too, apparently not.. ).. they managed to cut into the Q infront of some guy behind us.. argh.. ugly Singaporeans.. it was 11.30am when we get through Malaysian custom.. Faintz.. Precious time wasted. We took a cab over, had lunch (the prata only cost S30cents!!! CHEAP)then off to the dentist.... guess wat we were too late.. the dentist JUST left for some personal appointment and she's fully booked for the day.. Argh.. how lucky is that.. no choice, we booked another appointment for this coming Wed (National Day.. haiz.. bobian..) and that is only for tooth extraction.. dear got to come another day for tooth cleansing.. OMG..

.: Spring Cleaning :.

~ What to do ~

Did some reflection.. wondered what I've acomplished so far.. Cant think of any.. It seems that everyone in my clique, my buddies had found the path in life for them.. JieLin been promoted recently.. stable job.. goin to get hitched soon too, Am truely happy for her. A surpising twist in faith, Lei will soon be flying, a totally different arena to being a renderer, she's not going regret this, do support her for her choice too. Hammy's flying too!!! WOW!.. Hao also know what he wants too (I concluded after reading his blog).. Shui is performing in NDP!! How cool is that! Surely thats going to reflect very well when he goes for interview. Candice always knows what she wants, similarly to Jie, soon be hitched too. Mei got in MOE, finally!!! Its what she always wanted, so you go girl!! Davina, hopefully she's really gotten over that bastard (this call for a celebration), she too is teaching, finally a stable job and am glad for her...

Feeling lost now.. what have I achieved so far.. Even thought I've work quite a while, still not much was learned.. been kind of pampered at work too.. Yes.. am studying in NUS now.. but whats the big deal about it.. not exactly scoring well (in fact pretty bad).. not putting in much effort to fit in too.. more of a loner.. keep sticking to a few I know.. cant stand myself some times... always claiming to be very independant, givin this very strong front, when in fact I'm just weak, constantly feeling very insercure, needing assurance everytime.. Going to be a few more years before graduation (if I ever do make it to graduation).. not sure if this is the right path for me.. not sure if I can handle that much responsibility as an Architect.. or is this the life I wan? Being in this field for 5 years le, getting kinda sick already, but yet to hate it.. I cant hate it.. if I do, I'll be left with nothing.. since this is the only thing I've dreamt of doing since little.. now I'll need to endure a bit more and I'm there.. I should be happy but why do I feel this hollow-ness inside.. something is still missing.. is it my job?.. think its really time to work in a new environment the next holiday.. time to leave my comfort zone and explore.. My old firm is no longer able to provide me with the taste of acomplishment that I once experienced.I was a newbie before, not now, my opinion on job satisfaction changes.. Whats the point of earning more than anyone else... I need to feel valued. I'm just a typical Leo... feeling depressed and kinda hot tempered now.. argh.. am I making any sense at all.. why do I feel so much fustration all of a sudden.. stop here.. time to get my butt out of the house.. need to get files..

Got to know about a cool website from Jie Lin to jazz up my blog http://www.glittergraphics.us Me being such a newbie, just cant seem to get them to work the way I want them to look in my blog.. Buay tahan.. shall try again some other day.. Really suppose to tidy up today.. but just no drive to start the engine going.. Checked email.. tried out the new mic i've bought yesterday.. read a chinese comic book for lefty.. haaa.. its a funny book and relate so close to heart.. Right-handed ppl will never understand..

Its another leisure day for me.. slept till almost mid day.. then more slacking and blogging the entire day.. feels great. Did another collage for a contest @ Yahoo! website I love Hubba .. Photoshoped my top from a whilte to red to match the national day theme, did contrasting, montarge the NDP background @ the back.. I think I over did a little haaa. but heck.. already submited my entry. I'm overly excited about NDP. Haaaa..